Tanith

Do you ever get lost in your own little world? I am lost and stuck, I want to do so many things but have no idea where to start and how to start. I got a book about psychology, a real study book, from Liam’s step mom who actually studied Applied Psychology. I found a nice study online which I am going to take as soon as I got a new permanent job but thanks to this book I really want to start with a sort of ‘self study’ until I found this permanent job *still fingers crossed*. It would be amazing to get the basic knowledge in my head and fly through this course. Unfortunately it is only study material and there are no tasks or assignments in there. I always find studying with a specific goal easier then just reading a load of text. I best stop typing and start studying, right?

Another thing I really would like to do is to write a short story, but whenever I try I cannot even make a little column! I just do not have any inspiration at all for any of that unfortunately. Although I do have enough and plenty fantasy to read books and totally imagine myself in the story and get lost in the most pretty surroundings the writer is trying to tell me. Maybe I do got enough inspiration but when push comes to show my ‘writer’s block’ kicks in. This is good though, whenever somebody asks me what sort of job I have, I can say I am a writer, suffering from a writer’s block! Would they believe me?

No news yet from the company but hopefully they will get back to me tomorrow. It would be so wonderful if I could leave the place I work now. I spend more time there then anywhere else and I really want to go to a place where I will be respected for what I do instead of mocked. It nearly feels like I am back in school, even though I didn’t get mocked, teased or ridiculed there. I am trying to talk to Liam about this but he doesn’t understand. Everybody loves him, he is funny, smart and very easy going. I do not consider myself as a difficult person and I’d like to think that I can be funny sometimes. It’s just a lot harder living in a different culture then I thought.

Tomorrow I am going to pick up my awesome amazing laptop baggy together with Liam and after that we are going for a nice meal. This will be either a celebration meal or a comfort meal as they promised to ring me tomorrow regarding the interview. I am looking forward to our nice meal; I enjoy being with Liam and doing these sort of things. Unfortunately we don’t do them enough, but we’re getting there. Right, so still fingers crossed and hope for the best. We can use the extra money and we can both use me being a bit happier in general.