Do you ever get lost in your own little world? I am lost and stuck, I want to do so many things but have no idea where to start and how to start. I got a book about psychology, a real study book, from Liam’s step mom who actually studied Applied Psychology. I found a nice study online which I am going to take as soon as I got a new permanent job but thanks to this book I really want to start with a sort of ‘self study’ until I found this permanent job *still fingers crossed*. It would be amazing to get the basic knowledge in my head and fly through this course. Unfortunately it is only study material and there are no tasks or assignments in there. I always find studying with a specific goal easier then just reading a load of text. I best stop typing and start studying, right?
Another thing I really would like to do is to write a short story, but whenever I try I cannot even make a little column! I just do not have any inspiration at all for any of that unfortunately. Although I do have enough and plenty fantasy to read books and totally imagine myself in the story and get lost in the most pretty surroundings the writer is trying to tell me. Maybe I do got enough inspiration but when push comes to show my ‘writer’s block’ kicks in. This is good though, whenever somebody asks me what sort of job I have, I can say I am a writer, suffering from a writer’s block! Would they believe me?
No news yet from the company but hopefully they will get back to me tomorrow. It would be so wonderful if I could leave the place I work now. I spend more time there then anywhere else and I really want to go to a place where I will be respected for what I do instead of mocked. It nearly feels like I am back in school, even though I didn’t get mocked, teased or ridiculed there. I am trying to talk to Liam about this but he doesn’t understand. Everybody loves him, he is funny, smart and very easy going. I do not consider myself as a difficult person and I’d like to think that I can be funny sometimes. It’s just a lot harder living in a different culture then I thought.
Tomorrow I am going to pick up my awesome amazing laptop baggy together with Liam and after that we are going for a nice meal. This will be either a celebration meal or a comfort meal as they promised to ring me tomorrow regarding the interview. I am looking forward to our nice meal; I enjoy being with Liam and doing these sort of things. Unfortunately we don’t do them enough, but we’re getting there. Right, so still fingers crossed and hope for the best. We can use the extra money and we can both use me being a bit happier in general.
The interview went well, the people were very nice but for some odd reason I do not have a good feeling about this. I do want this job so bad though, it pays good, it is even closer to home then my old job, in the middle of the centre which is awesome! Plus the fact that I really cannot wait to get out of this job, I made up my mind, I hate it there. Lets just cross our fingers, and hope for the best.
I am loving this mini pc/notebook. I ordered a laptop bag for it, really nice but wasn’t home when they delivered it so I have to go into town and pick it up which is a blooming nightmare. Last time I had to pick up a package I had to wait for 30 minutes, but hey, it’s worth it!
Thanks to this little notebook I am hoping to post more entries more regularly, at the moment I am typing this on our comfy sofa while watching X-files, might as well do something fun during the commercial breaks. I love the X-files, I never watched all series though, I stopped watching when the guy that plays Mulder (Yes I know he has a name, David something, cannot be bothered to look it up lol) stopped in the show. Now the movie is out I have to watch them all though, I want it to make sense when I watch it! Anybody else who is into fantasy and odd stories that they are showing?
The wonders of a mini laptop, also known as a notebook. I still have to get used to the keyboard as the keys are just a bit smaller and typing in bed is not the most comfortable thing I ever done. After having a really bad cough for over 5 days I am finally feeling a bit better and went back to work this morning, BIG mistake. Notes pilled up my desk and being absent for 3 working days is good for over 90 emails. I wish I stayed home, they do not pay me enough to stress out.
All this has a good note though; I received an email yesterday with the question if I am still looking for work. Off course I am, in June we are all made redundant due to centralisation. Thanks to this there is a stop on recruiting which is only normal, so at the moment while my job is growing and the system gets more shit, which results in more and more work for me, there is absolutely nobody around to give a helping hand and nobody will be recruited for this purpose. So big yes, I am looking for a new job asap, I cannot get along with hardly anybody in the office for reasons unknown anyway, I cannot wait to get the hell out of there before I suffer a nervous breakdown.
So tomorrow I got a job interview and I am really exited. In this climate they contacted me if I am interested in a 40 hours per week permanent job, which nutcase would not be? Wish me luck!
Christmas is gone and it is back to work, I really think I just went through on e of the busiest weeks at work and I am absolutely spent. I just have to mention my parents though. When we where over for Christmas we decided to tell them as soon as my sister arrived. After a big (and lots) of cuddles with my sisters little guy we broke the news and they were all so excited and happy and just brilliant! I had such a wonderful time, Christmas was brilliant, the food was brilliant, and everything was. I really miss everybody and everything, sometimes I wish we could go back, right now. I know I am always will be able to return whenever I want, even if I do not have the finances. My parent would be so happy that I’m returning that they would pay for everything. But to get back to the big news, my mom promised to buy me my wedding dress!! Awesome! Only 1 catch though, I have to lose some weight, 6 sizes! Well, if you seen the dress I posted earlier, I have to if I want to look amazing, which I do obviously. Diet is go!
Things are a bit rough with Liam at the moment, since we got back. We do not seem to get a single minute alone together and when we do, we don’t know what to do with it, just sitting bored on the sofa, watching some TV etc. There has never been much romance in Liam but there has been in me, and at the moment it feels like I am losing romance! He is sitting in the other room with his mates but I feel so like he is so far away from me. I’m just hoping to get some time together soon; it is not easy living with his cousin, with anybody for that matter. It seems harder and harder to get any time together and in all honestly, we are both not really helping the matters either as in making time for each other and go out and actually do something fun together.
Completely different story now though, I nearly forgot to mention that Liam and I did do something together yesterday! We went to the store and got us 2 little itty bitty Roborovski hamsters! The charge cable for our camera has gone missing unfortunately but I looked them up on the internet and posted a random pic so you get the idea how they look like. I’ve been told that it was the smallest hamster in the world (known) and they are so cute! They are really little as they are only 8 weeks old. I called mine Josephine and Liam with his silly humour called his ‘Cleopatra Nibblit the Third’. Honestly, I got to get myself a camera so I can post some pics! *Note to self*
As I wanted to change my layout I went out to hunt and came across to what you are looking at now! I’m quite fond of it, it looks pretty good! I also updated the blog list and trying to find a few more things I can add, maybe even another blog to read if I can find the time. For now, let’s try and keep you a bit up to date, picking up where I left off.
The night before our ‘big’ journey to the Motherland we visited Liam’s mum, grandmother, brother and stepdad. After exchanging and receiving gifts (and some are absolutely gorgeous!) we gently broke down our happy news to them. Needless to say that they are very happy for us but not as enthusiastic as I thought they would be though. They are loving the ring Liam got me (Yes yes, I promise to upload a picture of it soon!) and seem happy in general, just not enthusiastic. We received a different response from Liam’s dad and stepmom though, I thought they would squeeze me so hard that I would fall broken on the floor as soon as they let me go! It feels good though, they all seem happy that I am becoming an ‘official’ member of their family and that all this even better.
Well, I think I already found my dream dress! I absolutely adore it! Behold:
What do you think?
How funny, I found out I got more readers then I thought! Before starting, fact: I only read blogs in my lunchtime at work as I never get around to it at home. So when I got back Monday I found out that Blue Soup did not make her blog public after all! Because I have not been checking her blog for a while I had some catching up to do. Today I came across this
entry. I was much exited to see that her blog was back up, even though she did get boring lately with all her locked posts (which off course I am unable to read).
Apparently Blue Soup thinks I am attacking her or some sort and is in her own way trying to make fun of me and my blog. Right, let’s see if we can sort out this misunderstanding; Blue Soup, just for you: I like to inform well, my little group of readers (which I know are 2 at the moment! Maybe even more, god knows) that I was changing my layout to make room for Becky, as I mention her name and blog in my posts now and then. I also mentioned you before and that I enjoyed reading your blog as you have a good way with words. I like to inform people of changes in my blog, even though not many visit, and the reason why I am changing it because I do not want to step on any long toes. Whoops!
The only reason why I was going to remove the link to your blog is because many of your post where password protected in the end and after that you stated that your blog was going to be private, so there was not much point to display a link to your blog anymore. Yes, I am a frequent reader but I never leave any comments, therefore I did not think you would give me the password even if I requested it, so decided to stop visiting your blog.
I have to admit, I am not a big blogger and do not make many entries, but never claimed to be. This is most likely the reason why I do not have many followers, but I don’t care. There is/was no need to have a go at me and my blog like that, just because I thought you stopped blogging publicly. Also, I did not go behind your back, as I thought your blog was protected (I tried to get on several times for maybe 2 weeks after but could not) therefore I could not leave you a message, and to be honest, I did (and still do) not think you’d care. After that I went on Holiday and did not think to check before my previous entry. So there you go, no offence, but I decided to remove the link and not bother with your blog again, a win - win situation I take it.
I know this should not bother me but I thought it would be best to explain things and see if we can sort out some misunderstandings which you have seem to take rather highly.
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Something different, I was reading the news and ran into
this story. I feel pretty bad for the guy but seriously, how do you manage to get yourself in such a hilarious position! According to the news he is fine but embarrassed though, which I can imagine. Just for you, a close up!
