It is all a bit calmer now, lots of things have been talked over and feelings exchanged. We both feel a lot better and working on the future. It is going to be difficult but we can do it. It has been a draining weekend and even though I feel a bit better now, I’m still so tired, I feel like I could sleep for over a week.
Liam doesn’t have the “urge” to do any gambling, not even when he was working. Yes, he did quite, but has a week notice so he is stuck there for a few more days and then that’s it. I’d say that he is doing pretty well and all isn’t as bad as it looked at first. I’m just happy to have him back, my man, how he was. Now we know what the matter is we can work it out, together.
Nobody else knows about this besides a few people from my work, and we would like to keep it like this. Like I said before, if my parents even sniff a bit off what is going on around here they will come and get me, drag me back to Holland. Don’t get me wrong, their absolutely fantastic and care about me very much (obviously), I just don’t want to leave.
Sometimes I feel like I should, to make it easier for Liam. But would it be easier for him? As for myself, I don’t want to leave him alone, just because it is getting a bit though now. I really do feel that we can make it, him and me. Have a family and grow old together, I’ve been told that’s rare and have to admit, I never felt like this before for any other person, I want to spend the rest of my live with him, with his twinkling eyes and cheeky smile. He’s mine and I’m his.
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On a bit of a lighter note, I am trying to convince my boss to hire me as a credit controller, change from this low administrators assistant job and get a bit higher up, maybe even some more pay as well. Would be good, we could need it right now. I also found a little online course for £60 to go with it. How to be a credit controller, it is only one module of a bigger course: This course is accredited by ASET and comprises one module of the Certificate in Business Skills award. So I will just go for this one and maybe someday finish the whole thing, would be nice to have a sort of diploma of something. Business skills, me… ^-^
Liam doesn’t have the “urge” to do any gambling, not even when he was working. Yes, he did quite, but has a week notice so he is stuck there for a few more days and then that’s it. I’d say that he is doing pretty well and all isn’t as bad as it looked at first. I’m just happy to have him back, my man, how he was. Now we know what the matter is we can work it out, together.
Nobody else knows about this besides a few people from my work, and we would like to keep it like this. Like I said before, if my parents even sniff a bit off what is going on around here they will come and get me, drag me back to Holland. Don’t get me wrong, their absolutely fantastic and care about me very much (obviously), I just don’t want to leave.
Sometimes I feel like I should, to make it easier for Liam. But would it be easier for him? As for myself, I don’t want to leave him alone, just because it is getting a bit though now. I really do feel that we can make it, him and me. Have a family and grow old together, I’ve been told that’s rare and have to admit, I never felt like this before for any other person, I want to spend the rest of my live with him, with his twinkling eyes and cheeky smile. He’s mine and I’m his.
*~~~*~~~*
On a bit of a lighter note, I am trying to convince my boss to hire me as a credit controller, change from this low administrators assistant job and get a bit higher up, maybe even some more pay as well. Would be good, we could need it right now. I also found a little online course for £60 to go with it. How to be a credit controller, it is only one module of a bigger course: This course is accredited by ASET and comprises one module of the Certificate in Business Skills award. So I will just go for this one and maybe someday finish the whole thing, would be nice to have a sort of diploma of something. Business skills, me… ^-^
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