Tanith

You know, the reason why we got a cat is because I nagged Liam to get me one, I needed company when he is not here. I am getting more and more uncertain if moving to England was a good idea. I love Liam and I want to be with him, no matter what. I am just missing my friends, my family. I had always something to do back in Holland; even if I stayed a day in there was a load that I still needed to watch, or cuddle with one of my cats or simply some cleaning up. Sit on my balcony enjoying the sun, reading a book, name it.

This cat is evil, yes it can be cute now and then, but he sheds like crazy. Evil ginger hair everywhere! I have no friends here in England, I tried to make some but so there is nobody that just goes *click*. Yes, friendship has to go click for me, like love needs to go *click* for me. Liam is doing his best but I just feel lonely here.

Even if I had a friend, I couldn’t invite them over, or go out. Thanks to Liam and Erm not doing anything in the household, it pretty much consumes my weekend. Maybe I am just bummed out that I still not hold my little nephew yet but recently I just feel… unsatisfied. In my work, in my social live, in watching Holland play with no back up, spirit surrounding me.

I normally don’t really like football, but when Holland plays, it is like the whole country coming together, drinking beer or wine, going out watching the match on TV and ranting when we should have gotten a penalty. It is just the vibe that is coming off people, the togetherness we normally do not have in Holland. I never thought I say this but I miss the damn flat place.

I even miss my job, that’s why I am so unsatisfied; there is nothing in my work that makes me happy. Not like with my old job. Sure it was nothing special, working on the distribution site of Philips house supplies but it made me happy, the place made me happy, the people made me happy. I feel like I do not belong where I work now. I’m not connected to anyone, I hear people ranting about problems which I can not do anything about it. I make a note in the system and that is it, although I make customers believe that I will solve their problem for them. But that is not my job…

Most of all I just miss somebody to talk to. If I tell my parents or my sister or even my brother what is bothering me, they will just say that I have to come back to Holland. But I won’t leave Liam. He makes me happy, makes me feel like we belong together and I do not want to give that up.

I am sorry that I am losing my happy *vibe* that I had going on here but hey, it is not like there is somebody to read this shit anyway. It’s my only outlet.

Holland won!! The first step, the first victory of many! Let’s hope so anyway, it would be nice if we got anywhere again, it has been a while. Tomorrow they are playing France, now I bet they will have it a bit more difficult against France then they had versus Italy. But I have to say, they played brilliantly the first halve, even before they scored the Italians were nowhere! Let’s all hold our breath and let our hearts cheer for Holland next Friday!!

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Other great news, I received an email from Rolls Royce the other day, asking if I wanted to come in for an interview for an open position they have. I forgot to take my CV off the internet and now I am glad I didn’t.

So keeping it cool (Rolls Royce is a huge standard and has great ‘poshness’ in my eyes) I emailed the nice gentleman back requesting more details about the position. Now the money is very good, very very good haha. How ever the position is only temporary… So that’s unfortunately a no go. It is good to know that people are interested though, I think I’ll just leave my CV on there haha!

GTA San Andreas, I’m totally hooked! Not as bad as when I first got it but I’m totally into it. So is my loved one, we installed it on his machine as well, looked up the crack so he can play it without the disc and voila! Because uni is out for summer now he has a lot more free time then I do. So he is much further them I am.

But still I love it! I am now at the point where I got stuck the last time when I played this game and gave up. So when missions get really difficult I just ask my wonder boy to do it for me! It is a very good game but I still can not wait for GTA4 to come out on PC! Our roommate has it for his Xbox and it looks so damn good. Even though everything seems to be a lot harder, driving a motorbike for instance, that’s my favorite way of transport in SA. We’ll see how it goes and what it is like.

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I’m not sure if I mentioned this, but we picked up a cat from the RSPCA here in Derby the other day. Really sweet little big orange thingy called Pug, but he can be very weird and psycho! One moment he is happy on your lap trying to turn your jeans into a ginger monster, happily purring, then he goes psycho, attacking your hand that is stroking him, hissing and mad noises and then putting his claws into you and jump off your lap. Why? As far as I am aware there is absolutely no apparent reason what so ever for him to do this.

We tried everything, from a little slap on the nose (not hard but enough to let him know that what he is doing is wrong), spray him with a little bit of water and even lock him up in his carrier box. Nothing works! I wanted a sweet cat, one that if it wants a nice cuddle it will come to you and when it had enough it would walk off, and not go psycho!

When he’s sweet I really like our little Pug, but I don’t know if we can keep him how he is. I was looking for some nice company when we get a cat and he isn’t really nice company.