After asking me informally, saying it, talking about our future and all that, he finally did it.
I do now know who messed up, but somebody messed up Liam’s student grants, and we knew this. Liam tried to get their attention, send all the paperwork he had to the right institution but everything got send back unread, and denied his request. About a month back Liam spoke to one of his fellow classmates and he informed Liam that he was getting a lot more money than we do. This seemed really odd, as his parents earn more money, he lives together with his girlfriend who makes a lot more money than I do and even he had a really good part time job, much better than Liam.
So Liam contacted the LEA or whatever it is called, they investigated and we sound out all the information again. About a week later (whooaa!) we received a letter that they indeed messed up his grants, stating that we would get the money they owed him from last year and a bit that they still owe us for this year! I already told you that I have a new PC, which is absolutely awesome and amazing; we got some breathing space, finally.
The last 2 weeks he has been teasing me that now we have that little bit of breathing space, he bought me something special for Christmas, but I would not receive it until we were at my parents (a story for later, yes we are going to Holland for Christmas). How could he be so cruel! Stating he has something special for me, but not willing to give it to me! And to make matters worse, he ‘hid’ it in a little black bag in the drawer of his cabinet next to ‘his’ side of the bed. I knew it was in there and he forbid me to go anywhere near! Have you ever been teased like that, somebody saying there is something special for you, telling you where that special place is but not letting you anywhere near it!
I have to say, temptation was there, all the time, BUT! I made it, I did not go in that drawer and had a sneak preview, I promised and I wasn’t going to break that promise. Besides, I had an idea what it was going to be and I did not want to ruin that moment later on. Thank god that I did not go in for a sneak preview!
I was having a pretty rough week, very busy at work with a very annoying colleague sitting opposite of me and it was just horrible. Unable to get a good night rest, feeling cranky and nothing really seemed to go my way. Previous Wednesday Lee came home back from work, they asked him to do some overtime due to a big workload that came in, he had to work until 11pm. Tired as ***k as I was, I went to bed at 10 and fell asleep. Liam knows I cannot sleep very well until I know he is home save. I know, it sounds really bad and way too clingy, but I like my man home save, especially with his mate who was driving him home being an absolute maniac on the road!
Liam came up and woke me, saying that he is home save; he sat down on the bed and turned around to give me a really nice cuddle, giving me a nice gentle kiss. At this stage I was so happy to see him (as I did not all day) that I forgot all about my days being shitty. In his hand he had a little box, I did not even realise he had it until he gently opened it, I was a bit drowsy as I just woke up but when my sight cleared I saw the most beautiful golden ring with a lovely diamond on it. ‘Jo’ he said gently ‘will you marry me’.
It is weird how a game can effect so many things, like longing for romance in my case. I’ve been playing Mass Effect and just finished it. The story line is amazing and even though it is an RPG you can develop a romance with one of your crew. I love games, I love RPG’s and I love FPS but this game has a hold on me. I know there will be a Mass Effect soon and hopefully I can sort of pick up where we left off.
After finishing the game I googled the game and it turnes out that it is actually based on a book! I am quite curious and might end up buying this book. The second book is out since this summer as well! I am not sure if I want to read that one just yet as I first want to play the game, the book might give away to much which would be a pitty.
Obviously I picked a female character and developed a romace with Kaiden (one of my crew). The flirting and eventualy the getting together (no, you don’t see anything in the game and you dont have to, at least for me, it is about the romance). I just loved that going in circles with the characters and the flirting, and just realised, I miss that. Liam is not much of a romancer and he never will be, I just miss the exitment of flirting, seeing where you end up if you persue and everything with it. Kind off silly though that it takes a silly game to realise how much I actually miss it. I need to get out more, get some friends and maybe encourage Liam to be a bit more... romantic. I have to say, all the encouragement so far and even saying it blunt did not go well, infact, it didn’t lead to anything...
Hey there hansom, I know university is really hard in this second year, a lot of new things to learn and they are not easy. I know you’re scared of failing, but trust me, believing that you can make it through is half the job done.
I just have to let you know that you are one of the smartest persons I know, still a few bits and bobs to learn about life in general but so smart. Even though you make a few mistakes here and there, that’s how we learn.
You have a brilliant mind, you attack the internet to absorb any information you can find about anything that remotely interests you, and what is even more amazing, is that you remember it too!
I know you can do it, I believe in you and I am more then happy to be your coffee lady when you are so busy studying or trying to solve another problem you stumbled into. I moved from Holland to England to be with you while you are doing this course, mainly because I just want to be with you, and I also believe in you. I know you can do this and I am 100% behind you, always.
We received great news! Liam is a student in his second year and we found out (Thank you LEA!) that they messed up his grants! To make a very long story short, we received a lot of money and as I posted before, I got a brand new shiny PC now! I also got accepted unofficially by the course leader to do Psychology online which I am so thrilled about and I cannot wait to start. I am just hoping there will be grants available to pay for it as I do not have a spare penny to pump into it. I am sure there is something we can do about that, if not, it will have to be put on hold for now.
The bad news... All personnel in our office was called to the board room. Sat here was our financial director who was running our department in Derby. She had a worried face and we all froze thinking 'this cannot be good'. And it wasn't. The company I work for has several divisions and she notified us that they were going to centralize, meaning that our office most likely is to be closed in June next year.
The good news about this is that I have around 9 months to find a new job, the sooner the better because I really do not want to stick around. I was feeling really bad for the people that worked there over 5 years, most people started crying after it sunk in. We have a lovely lady in our department (sitting opposite of me) and she worked here for nearly seven years. She just turned 60 and is close to retirement. Nobody is willing to take on somebody that old who only needs 1 or 2 more years before she can retire. I felt really bad for them, personally I did not really care. I've been thinking a lot recently about changing jobs, I just did not want to do it just yet, but that all changed now.
I do not mind looking for a new job, I got all the time I need, no hurries and well, even though I am going to miss quite a few people and the relaxed office atmosphere I know there is something much better out there and I intent to find it! I might even try to get a job with Derby university administration team, which would be so awesome! With time comes the right job, I'm not worried, it is not really bad news, it's just sad news.
It was cold, I think it was even snowing at some stage, my Liam and I snuggled together, standing in the middle of a field surrounded by hundreds of other people. Nobody talked, nobody knew what to expect, we all waited full expectation.
Then it started, small at first, nothing mayor but still beautiful, the sound was deafening when the big ones came. Red, Purple, Bright white, Blue, Yellow, Green, all the colors you can imagine, they had it. We all forgot about the snow, the very soggy field where you shoes sunk in 3 inches deep, we all watched amazed to this beautiful, spectacular display. I love bonfire night!!
